The dread.

Just finished browsing through tv channels. It seem to be a lazy day for me. Well, almost every day is a lazy day.
Got back my report book today. What can I say? Nothing much really. I barely passed and yet I am so eager, thinking that my parents will allow me to go to HongKong. Fat chance. Strangely, I don't feel anything. I guess i have accepted the fact that nothing I say will change their decision. Somehow, I feel guilty. I seem to have cause them to misplace their trust in me. I made them feel disappointed. All the hopes they had pinned on me, seemed to have just extinguished. I probably can't face them today. So thank god I have tuition till late. I am sorry, though you guys won't see this and I can't say it out. Sorry.
I seemed cheerful before the results were out. I guess I had to make myself feel this way. Why be upset for the whole day when you know you will be more miserable at night? It just isn't worth it. All of a sudden, I feel like playing Le Miserable. What an irony.

To make this post a little cheerful, I won money by playing BlackJack. I am sorry Matttttthhhtewwwwwwww. I won three bucks from you. [: I am sorry Teck Guan, I won two-fifty from you. (Though you haven't paid me yet!;D) I am sorry Langston, I won one buck from you. ^___^ Physics SPA was alright, I guess. Though it isn't as fun as producing crystals from clear blue solutions. Mr Ang didn't come up again. I felt that we had disappointed him and the other teachers. I feel bad. Sorry.

Should I feel sorry for myself? I guess not. If I do, I must be a bitch.

Heck with the amount of "Sorry"s, I feel screwed up.

Damn.